March 11th I was diagnosed with Narcolepsy.
Looking at my past symptoms my neurologist believes I have had signs for almost 10 years
now. It is what it is. I’ve have had struggles… okay a lot. I know there are
plenty of people that have much worse problems than I but this is my current
challenge and as of right now it’s 1 and I’m 0!! I am so up and down about
medication. I want to just wake up and ignore it’s not there but it won’t go
away. I’m learning to slap on a smile and work the day away but the minute I go
home I hate the world. I don’t talk to anyone about it. I’m just really sick of
something always being wrong with me. What is a normal life? What is happy? I
have family and friends but I feel kind of alone most of the time. I finally
had a mental breakdown last night! Literally, just had it. Tired of being
tired, tired of trying, tired of thinking and really tired of trying to figure
this out. Today, the rain stopped and the sun came out!!! I need exercise and I
need a healthy diet. Of course I feel so bad… who wouldn’t stuffing their face
with cake while crying. LOL April 5th new day new journey!! I’ll
keep you updated and we will see how this goes :)
